Log

Wednesday June 24, 2009

Finished Again

It was only when I finally drove away from my place on campus one last time that I really felt it. I am done with my stay at Stanford. Yes I will be in the area, probably will visit campus and bike around it time to time. But I won’t really remain a resident of this place anymore.

After dropping off the last of my stuff at my place for the summer, I drove off. Away from the whole area for a while. And the feeling wore off. I guess I am getting used to this. Six years ago I graduated from high school, two years ago from UCSD, and less than a month ago from Stanford.

Now with a two degrees in hand I go off into the world; confident in my skills and experiences. So what now? My entrepreneurial adventure from last year yielded some good results, but mostly I have gained a ridiculous amount of experience and understanding. Though I may not continue working on everything I have been, I can’t see myself stopping from tinkering with new ideas. I’ve got something interesting lined up for the short term, but I haven’t figured out what I want to really tackle.

I’ll figure it out over time. For now I will have a little more time to mess around, and maybe I will start with a little redesign/rethink of this website… hah! Can’t promise myself that :-)

Tuesday December 23, 2008

Moments of Change

This has to be one of the more interesting years of my life, and though it has been an eventful year I have not had the chance to share my experiences with the many friends I seem to have lost touch with. Here I wish to recount the highlights of what happened and what I learned, with the hope that some of you will read through it. In a few days I will attempt to write about what I hope the New Year will bring.

The year started with me watching TV in bed at my parents’ place in India. Live New Year celebrations came streaming in from all different corners of the world and the sky outside felt like it does at daytime. I fell asleep through the occasional burst of rockets as the celebrations of the night waned away.

When I was leaving India I waved goodbye to my parents, my father wearing a red Stanford sweatshirt I had bought for myself but he fell in love with. As always it was a bittersweet moment. I was returning back to the country where I grew up, leaving behind the country where I was born and the country that my parents had never left in their hearts for the 11 years they lived in America.

As I was flying back I remembered the not so unexpected email from a friend that vaguely said that he wanted to talk. I knew it was about an idea that had been churning in his mind and was awaiting its disclosure.

Upon landing back in SFO I quickly found myself surrounded by the great zeal and excitement of starting a new venture and inventing a new product with two great friends. In the first three months we applied for a grant and started building a prototype of an exciting new idea in the world of mobile phones. We worked hard through the evenings, juggling our previously held commitments of research, teaching and studies with a new promise to ourselves.

Our hard work started paying off when we received the grant near the end of winter quarter after having declined offers for promising internships. But on the advent of the grant we found ourselves in a new conundrum. We knew we wanted to launch our product with the launch of the iPhone App Store, and we knew that was almost impossible if we continued with school the following quarter. After much deliberation we reached the most sensible consensus. Two of us (who could) took Spring quarter off to focus all of our attention to meeting this hard deadline.

For the next three months all three of us worked away our days and nights in the office graciously provided to us by the firm that gave us the grant. We biked to our office on some days and would bike back late at night on an un-lit road feeling the cool spring air run through our fingers clenched tightly to the handles. The three of us worked as a unit through those months, constantly working as quickly and efficiently as possible.

The night before the launch we printed thousands of fliers for our product to hand out to the long lines already forming at Apple Stores throughout the country. At a completely unexpected moment during the night we found the App Store come to life. We quickly downloaded an early version of our app that had been approved and was up for grabs on the store. When we turned on our app we held our breath and waited for the released version to come to life. For a few moments nothing happened. The app opened and a spinning wheel that said it was waiting to connect did just that, spin, nothing more. We felt a deep sinking feeling in our hearts, then started scrambling to figure out what was wrong when suddenly, there it was. The screen filled up with nearby users and we breathed a sigh of relief. We watched our first customers walk in the door.

A few hours later, when morning rolled in, the three of us and various friends and family dispersed throughout the state to the lines snaking around Apple Stores. We handed out countless fliers that day and watched as our user count increased much faster than we expected. It was a triumphant day, and the next few days we continued flyering the endless lines. I can’t thank enough everyone that helped and supported us through it all. This includes all the new friends we made at our shared office during the summer.

I fell sick one of these days; it was a new type of sickness for me. It felt exactly like a bad cold and I rested through it like any other cold and drank some NyQuil to help me sleep through the night. The next day I felt much better, and the day after I was completely back to normal. This was the quickest sickness-to-health cycle I had ever been through. But this wasn’t the last time it happened. Through the remainder of the year I found myself in this state a couple more times. I still can’t completely explain it, but I believe it’s from exhaustion.

Through the rest of the summer we continued building our app, zintin, improving it and making it more useful. Much to our surprise another app we built as a spin off became far more popular than we expected; Scribble became one of the top apps on the App Store.

Alas, the summer ended, and with our grant money mostly depleted we returned back to continue school. But we did not leave work behind and continued working through school.

It was nice being back in the environment that gave birth to our idea; it was nice after a harrowing few months to be back in the company of old friends. But it was also hard to efficiently continue working. Juggling various responsibilities again became the essence of our existence. Through the course of the quarter we began finding the balance yet again and became efficient once again.

Then came winter break and that’s where I find myself now. Though we continue working, we have also returned to our respective homes. Spending time with family has started restoring much of what had drained away from my mind and body through the year. And having a few moments to reflect has allowed me to evaluate the ups and downs of the year, what it means to me and how it has changed me.

I feel that I have become more confident in myself. My abilities and way of thinking have very much been validated. But there has also been some real change. I have learned to understand when I am simply reacting and when I am acting after careful thought and how and when to use either of those modes of work. I have learned to trust in others, their abilities and quality of work. I have also honed my ability to recognize good and better ideas.

Most importantly I found a form of work that I have not become annoyed or bored of. I find myself at home in this world of entrepreneurship, through all it’s ups and downs, through all the moments when everything feels like it is doomed and through all the moments when a bright future seems only an inch away.

Wednesday December 03, 2008

Motivation, Productivity and Procrastination

The last few days have been a bit odd for me. After a hike at the close of Thanksgiving vacation, which primarily became a flurry of work, I lost nearly all motivation to get stuff done. Though there are pretty major deadlines looming ahead of me I just don’t feel like doing any of it.

Thinking over it, there are a lot of things that could be causing this. My parents, whom I haven’t seen for a year, are visiting from India. There is a major move coming up where my entire dorm will be moved to a different location.

You could say that I’ve been busy hanging out with my parents and preparing for the move, but that’s not really it. In actuality I seem to have had more time this week to get things done than the last few, yet at the same time I feel like I got less accomplished. I open up eclipse, I stare at it for a bit, and move on away. I go catch up on twitter, or watch some show on hulu. But I don’t find myself really wanting to anything.

Then I had a conversation with a friend last night. He told me that he had a meeting in one of the study rooms in our dorm. His entire team sat there for 45 minuets doing nothing. None of them could muster up any mental energy to move forward with their project. Then they moved to a different location not in the dorm and suddenly everything started moving.

His guess was that the room was just a killer for productivity. I thought about that for a bit. It’s a dingy old room, stacked full of old stuff and packing material provided to the residents for the upcoming room. It’s not clean, everything is wearing down, and the white ceiling light instead of making it bright and cheery place to work simply highlights how worn out the place is. Then I thought about it further and that’s what the entire dorm feels like. The doesn’t look like it has been maintained a single time since it was put up in the 50’s. That’s what my room feels like, and trying to get stuff done in there right now is asking for zero productivity.

That’s when I decided to try my hand at another place. So here I am at the library, where at the very least I have mustered up some energy to write a blog post. And now that I am done, maybe I’ll move on to actually working.

Saturday November 22, 2008

Has it really been seven months?

Though there have been a few drafts, it seems I haven’t posted anything in seven months. Seven Months. I don’t think I have left this site alone for that long before. Maybe that’s a good thing. It probably means that I am simply spending much more of my time actually doing things. And I have.

Even so. It is slightly disappointing. Starting early in my high school career I have grown up with some form of personal website. I have posted links, mini-applications, musical recordings, animations, photos, drawings, and most prominently thoughts. They are all recorded in some form in a personal website. They all hold some meaning to me, if not anyone else.

I have written many times about re-designing/re-building this website. Everytime I have, I have made a joke of this publicly proclaimed self promise. Luckily for me I don’t really have much of a readership on this site, or else it would be even more ridiculous. Even so if you were to ask me at any given moment, what I would want this site to be, I would give you a coherent but different answer.

The latest incarnation is some sort of blog/feed mashup, which would, aside from writing, have feeds from my various presences on the web. This would include, Twitter, magnolia, facebook, posterous and probably some other places I can’t immediately remember. On top of that I may want to include some handrolled content, like hand written HTML pages, mini-applications etc.

We’ll see what happens with all of that. It was really the re-read of zeldman’s article on personal websites that made me want to touch this blog again. Maybe I’ll increase my frequency here again.

Sunday May 25, 2008

Cleaning Up

After several promises to myself to redo the layout of this site I have failed. Presently I am working away on zintin (I just redid that website today). When you make one thing your full time work, and by full time I mean full time, you start finding yourself slowly losing track of many other things.

For one, my room is a mess. It really takes a short time for it to start looking neat and clean, but this time I am craving a deeper clean. I have accumulated a lot of stuff over the years, and during my last big move had got rid of much of it. Yet still I have way too much stuff lying around for my cramped room. Part of it is my parents old stuff that I need to slowly move back to India over my many trips there; part of it is boxes of crap that I have attached way too much value to.

So I have now decided to take about one hour a day, likely at night after I get back from work, to slowly clean out the stuff I own. It may not take very long actually. Just today I sorted out a bunch of clothes to donate and a bag of random computer parts that I need to get rid of properly.

Hopefully as I slowly clean my space up, I will also clean my mind up. Then maybe I can start dedicating an hour a day to something else, like this website. One thing at a time though.